Way too much time on my hands.....

So just a quickie... I totally over thought things....

I'm still happy.

Getting some phone time in....

Vibes

I feel like now that we have met. The vibe is different. I don't want to think that I am over thinking things. But the phone calls have completely slowed down.

I understand that yesterday we both needed some sleep.

I did talk to him last night for a little bit on the phone.

But it still feels different.

I hope I'm wrong.

After a week of late night phone calls.....

Sooooooo..... Um... ya.

I mentioned I had been spending endless hours on the phone with a fellah lately. I went off to meet up with him yesterday. In Toronto... Gotta love that Go bus ride! Actually, it isn't that bad. The weather was nice, easy ride for the most part...

Off to a city where I barely know any street names, one of the biggest cities in our country. I was only displaced for about five minutes. Thankfully. I found my way to his place pretty easily.

And yes... he was everything I expected. I forewarned him I would be pretty shy at first.... Twiddled and played with my hair like I was a 15 year old. It was nice. Completely!!!! CHILL! I was pretty quiet though. I hope I didn't give him the wrong impression.

I'm quite sure in a different post I said, even if I just got to kiss him...... Ya well, his lips are as juicy as they look. Soft. Big, yummy lips.

He showed me some of the stuff he has been working on with his 'students'. Played some ol'skool records. Watched a movie, and watched him blow up an air mattress....

Now... most people would of run right? Long story short, we slept on a very uncomfortable air mattress.... But that is NOT me complaining.

I really don't want to over-think or over-feel anything right now.... My track record holds me back a little.

He asked me last night if I would come back and visit. And I would.... (Insert a smile here) I hope he still wants me to come back.

We have talked briefly since I have been back home. We are both pretty tired, from work, staying up all night for the last week talking to each other on the phone, and then yesterday/last night. And of course, no sleeping in for me again. I woke up just after seven, and stayed half asleep for about 45 minutes before actually getting up.

Keeping my fingers crossed... without saying or revealing too much.

Just really enjoyed him and his company last night. A lot.

Home Sweet Home....

It surely feels like a Friday today. But alas it is only Wednesday. 

I am feeling really blessed today. After a long day at work, I come home to my kids, and of course my dog. Lest we forget my oldest son, his girlfriend and their dog are also living here (temporarily), so I was happily greeted by their four legged friend as well. 

Tomorrow, I will have the honour of finding out if I will be having a grandson or granddaughter. My oldest son's girlfriend is just over five months pregnant, and her ultrasound is booked for tomorrow! Hopefully the baby, who I strongly feel is a boy, will give us the chance to find out in fact if it is a boy or girl. 

I am getting excited!! A baby to care for... that I can give back!! Who could ask for anything more? 

The younger three are off to a great start in their respective schools.

My mom had surgery today. The doctor said it went amazingly well. So hopefully tomorrow night she could take a visitor before she goes home on Friday morning. 

Life has been calm, quiet, carefree, drama free!! 

I am truly blessed.

Songs on the radio...

Every song I have heard on the radio today make me think of this fellah I have been spending way too much time on the phone with lately.

I know I mentioned in a previous blog that I have been talking to him endlessly the last few days. Hehe, I mentioned to him yesterday that I had briefly blogged about him, so today he says 'write any blogs lately?'

He thinks he's cheeky eh?

I don't want to write about him. But I do. I feel like if I do, I will jinx things.

It's like he reads my mind.

But how is it possible right?

I get that people are easy to talk to. I get that  I am, that he is. But there's this chemistry. Already.

Then there is the reality; I haven't even met him!

...... I'm sure I wrote it, I know he's said it, I feel like I'm in high school, studying the time to see if it's time to shoot a text, or a phone call.

He has become a part of my day, in a matter of days.

I want to ask how. But I really don't care how. I'm just happy it is.

I want to say that when we do link up, and if there is no chemistry in person, that I would be seriously disappointed, but I can't. Because it won't be like that. I just know that.

When you have finally succumbed to being happy with where you are....

By no means am I complaining about  this disruption, because  it's a happy one.

*My daughter walks into my room as I'm blogging, and informs me that my cousin and her got together for lunch to gossip about who I've been on the phone with lately. Geez.

I have found a happy place in the last few days. If nothing else.

And sore cheeks from smiling!

I really like this fellah. I don't know how.... I just do. It's so easy to talk to him for endless hours. We have so many things in common. Feel the same way about so many things. But yet we come from two different places in life, that still have things that resemble similarities. How is it that this fellah has me feeling like I will no longer be the "old cat-(Less) lady".

It's all about the timing. And this.... This, in my little world, is perfectly perfect.

I keep saying that I don't want to ask how.... But HOW!! How do I feel so strongly about someone who is a perfect stranger.... but isn't. Because I know him. Somehow... I know him. How can I feel "mushy gushy crap".

Good grief imagine when it's "real" I just might explode. Or he will, either or....

All the songs on the radio... make me think of you today. Can you please come out of my train of thoughts for a little bit... I do have to be productive with my day.

Hours on the phone....

Do you remember the days when you were in high-school. And you found that one person... Who you could talk to for hours on the phone. Without the awkward silences, or the pauses waiting for someone to say something?

When the sun is starting to come up as you put the phone down, and crawl under the blankets to go to sleep.

Well over the course of the last three nights, I have spent 14-15 hours on the phone with this fellah.

It's been easy. Flowing. Amusing and informative.

It's 2013. So to be straight, this is a fellah I "met" on a 'dating web site'. Now take note I have never met him in person.

I've always been told I am easy to talk to. So talking on the phone for hours isn't something new to me. But more-so new to me lately.

I already want to talk to him now... But I have things to do, and I know he does too. But later.. I'm quite sure there will be a lengthy phone call.

He expresses to me how he enjoys talking to me, and throws in 'those' adorably cute flirtatious comments. The way we talk, it's like we have been together, met, and known each other for a long time.

He has repeatedly made comments about 'when we get married'. And normally wouldn't that send any woman running for the hills... But the way he just randomly throws them into a normal conversations is 'cute'.

How can you like someone you haven't even met? There's a chemistry there.

Did I mention he has these HUGE, sumptuous, full, juicy lips. If nothing ever comes of anything... I at least want to see what his lips feel like against mine. How frikken sappy is that? The most succulent lips I have ever seen. I swear.

I'm tempted to throw on my big girl panties and just kiss him when I see him, regardless to see.... feel... know.

Who is a happy girl?

This girl!!

How did my day start out? Meh....

Last night I was on the phone until midnight, talking to a fellah... It was one of those few hour phone calls without even realizing it, kind of calls.

Easy conversation. Good laughs. Informative kind of call.

So needless to say, I am not a morning person. Usually.

But today, I actually woke up in good spirits, and the day was off to a great start.

I managed to throw a run into the mix even. Had to listen to my new fav jam... One Drop by QQ, pon di replay, as I would say!

Had a real good run going... And then my dad called, asking if he could come over and talk. Of course I go into pure panic mode.

I start thinking, is someone hurt, dying, getting married? Is something wrong with mom? He assures me it is nothing I need to worry about. But can he come by in half an hour.... Sure... Let me finish my run. I get to the corner of my street, and of course, there is this longer than natural train at the intersection, that proceeds to stop a few times, back up a bit, stop again, and finally, but most definitely slowly, trudges on and allows the more than normal traffic build up pass.

I get to about three houses away from my house, and my dad has already pulled into my driveway. So I am sweaty and gross, and breathing like I ran a marathon still.

Then he asks, can we talk privately... Ut oh!!

There was actually nothing to be worried about!

To make a long story short... My dad got me a job interview, TODAY, minutes after my run, at a pharmacy owned and operated by a family member.

So I get ready quickly, and my dad drives me there. Straight into my interview. And an hour later... I was working there! Ahhhhh!!!

Unsupervised, doing it up!! BIG!! I apparently rocked my 'shit' today....

Doing the happy dance!!

So ya... that's my day in a nut shell. Now I'm coming off the blog, to go spend some phone time with the fellah who kept me up last night as he's texting me now!

BLESSED!

Here we go again....

I have blogged before....

Many times... I have deleted many blogs too. Probably four or five now.

They were blogs about life, kids, family, friends, lovers, boyfriends, ex's, assholes....

I deleted the blogs, probably to delete the memories.

I would go back and read them. Relive them. For example. I had this "Single mom blog".

And then I started dating this guy, who made me happy. For a SHORT minute!! And I had started a non-single blog. Needless to say the non-single blog was deleted after the guy who made me happy, turned slightly psychotic!

No need to remember that sh*t!!

So now, I am back to blogging.

A place where no one I know, that I know of, actually reads the melodramatic antics I call my life.

A place where I can pretend to be honest with myself and my feelings, and vent a little bit.

So where am I now?

Almost at rock bottom? Single, 4 kids, soon to be a grandmother! I am turning 37 next month!! Tell me how that works!! WOW!! (For the record, I will be a pretty sexy G.I.L.F!)

Sooooo..... I just wanted to start blogging again. Let's see how long this one lasts!!